Selfish thoughts? Maybe. Doesn't make them any less real. It's the worst thing in the world to have to sit on something you're really proud of until the rest of the story is told, even if you're working your ass off to get there. And once you get there, you know some people will likely roll their eyes.
Another one of those days when the author can't help but second-, third-, and fourth-guess herself.
ETA: saavikam77, thank you and I love you. I needed that so bad you don't even know.