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28 January 2013 @ 01:59 pm
Days Like This...  
You find yourself in the middle of writing something that you truly love, know that it'll be a while before you can actually show it, know that your readers are second-guessing your current plotting when it should be a clue that you're up to something, there are issues with future polishing and the fact that it's not as fun as it was, and you wonder if you just shouldn't shut the whole shooting match down because no one actually cares about this 'verse anymore other than you.

Selfish thoughts? Maybe. Doesn't make them any less real. It's the worst thing in the world to have to sit on something you're really proud of until the rest of the story is told, even if you're working your ass off to get there. And once you get there, you know some people will likely roll their eyes.

Just...GAH.

Another one of those days when the author can't help but second-, third-, and fourth-guess herself.

ETA: saavikam77, thank you and I love you. I needed that so bad you don't even know.
 
 
On the Verge of: frustratedfrustrated
 
 
 
Sharaicsdslowpoke on February 1st, 2013 04:50 am (UTC)
I am still here enjoying the journey and and as far as people rolling their eyes Hah no way could they do half as good a job so who cares about them? Please continue in this verse,
you still have me hooked. :) Thanks
Lois: Clois :: Lois Smile Clarkkalalanekent on February 1st, 2013 05:11 am (UTC)
Thanks, love. A lot of it is that I have this entire story written already in my head and I know EVERYONE'S fate, most of it I've known for years, but you guys have no idea where we're going with it. I I just want everyone to enjoy it as we let it spool out. I promise that there is a point to what we add to chapters, even if you don't see the sense for ten chapters.

I think everyone has some questions about the scenes written from outside the main four. The truth is that we're leading to something MUCH larger with them. This is the gateway to the monster epic that's going to be Blood Will Tell. Most people have forgotten that this is actually a one-shot series that we're just compacting here so it's easier to keep up with. So there's a LOT to cover [eight years to be honest, so there's going to be another time-skip soon] in the space of this story because there's quite a few changes in that time.

I know you didn't ask all of this, but I think I just needed to get it out there. The frustration is very real when those questions come up. XD I just want to scream, "Stop asking and just read! I promise we'll explain it soon! *sighs*

The eye-roll will be over a section toward the end of the series and I probably get it from the same people that snarked about Kala and Jason being 'Jedi Twins' and that went to Fandom Secrets and were pretty brutal about calling Kala a useless Mary Sue back during LS. Whatever. Really, there are more than a few people that have been told already and love it, so I shouldn't worry about it.

Then, too, you guys know I worry about everything. ;)

Thanks for the love! I appreciate it SO much! *hugs*
(Anonymous) on February 1st, 2013 09:07 pm (UTC)
Don't bother with them!
A couple of weeks ago, I saw you were feeling a bit down. I was actually checking on you (and your stories) while I was in honeymoon! I wanted to write you something at the time but 1) I was on an i-phone and I really can't write anything on that machine! and 2) a young writer just told you, in much better words. what I wanted to tell you...
Now I am back and I can type something longer than a few misspelled lines (thank you i-phone auto-correct) and let me tell you, again, that you have a real talent and that a lot of readers are behind you and trust you.... Need I say it again? I checked your profile during my honeymoon!!!!!
Keep on the good work that you are doing!
Nanou1983
Lois: LS-Verse :: Lois Jason :: Never Doubt Lokalalanekent on February 5th, 2013 06:17 pm (UTC)
Awww, sweetheart, you did? That's love, that really is! *snuggles you* And I totally understand about the i-phone making things difficult. I know people who have written whole epics on theirs and I'm just like, HOW? It's hard enough for me to text on my phone!

Yeah, I've just been struggling to regain my footing since coming back from Christmas. I think it's just that I have so many ideas and so many scenes set up in my head and it just makes me crazy when I get second-guessed lately, which makes me want to rethink everything I already have in place.

And I love you for understanding. It's just really hard sometimes to make people get how hard this can be. Especially when with this verse, I have the entire future mostly plotted out. And it hurts to think that I did it all, only to lose the audience this far in. Doesn't help that it's my favorite universe, like you guys couldn't tell.

God, I am so wordy on this lately. Geez.

Anyway, *hugs* and thank you SO much for thinking about me at a time like that and congrats, Nanou! That's awesome!