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29 March 2009 @ 12:56 pm
*unhappy sigh*  
Between the literary world (the fact that I wish people had more trust in me and the plot I'm weaving plus the fact that Lois is in a very gray place and most people aren't understanding why. First people complain about the fluff, now I'm hearing about the angst. *sigh* Heirs is the sequel to LS; what made you think we didn't have a meatier storyline than the opening arc? And this story is about more than just the Clois relationship. Everyone just take a deep breath) and RL (the Bagel is very sick and not at home right now and other assorted family issues that are still being taken care of). I had to come home early today due to this. I just want to curl up and hide somewhere, but I can't sleep. I'm riding on two hours sleep after a long day yesterday and I can't even close my eyes. 

Some one name me one thing that's going right this week? *sighs, growls, and kicks something*

It's no wonder people are avoiding me these days. 

ETA: Some spoilers for Heirs in the thread. Be careful what you read!
On the Verge of: stressedstressed
saavikam77: Clois Flightsaavikam77 on March 29th, 2009 05:37 pm (UTC)
Oh, hon. *gentle hugs*

First off, I certainly hope that my review didn't come off as complaining. I absolutely love that giving so much depth to the characters and the larger story building around them. The fact that I wanted to drop kick Lois and Clark both just means that I've gotten really emotionally invested in the characters. ^_~

Second, I went back and read the other reviews, both here and on ff.net. A) People who don't use punctuation and can't bother to capitalize the first word of a sentence should be completely ignored, and B) Fuck 'em all. *nods decisively*

Last, I'm so sorry about the puppy being sick. *more hugs*

Get some rest, hon. I'm sending lots of good thoughts.
Lois: LS :: Superman Lois :: Love Youkalalanekent on March 29th, 2009 05:51 pm (UTC)
Oh, no, Ella, that's not about you at all! *hugs* If anyone knows what we're doing right now and has been down the same road, it's you. It's just that I feel like I must not be getting Lois' emotional state across really well right now, especially since both she and Clark are in the wrong and it sounds to people like she's whining just to whine, which makes me nuts because she does have valid points and I wouldn't write her this way without a good reason. And people aren't seeing that. Doesn't anyone realize that Lois doesn't have the insight into what he's doing that he has? *mutters and tries not to tear her hair out*

Yeah, there are been some reviews lately that have annoyed me. I think it's cute how many people want Doomsday right now because of SV, although you know that's not what we have in mind. I absolutely couldn't go there with this 'verse. I'm leaving that to a more gifted author. ;)

I just want her home. I was so drugged up so I could sleep last night for my nine-hour shift that I wasn't even conscious when Anissa took her, only semi-awake for the first time she got sick. I feel awful for it because I should have gone with them to keep her calm and now all I want to do is be able to love on her, but we'll likely not get her back until tomorrow morning. I want my baby Bagel home. :(

I may go down for a nap in a little while, but I'm just so wound up that I can't sleep. It just sucks.
saavikam77: Clex Hugssaavikam77 on March 29th, 2009 06:06 pm (UTC)

Yeah, I really do see how both of them are messed up right now, how their rut has just skewed both their perspectives about things. I think most other fans just want to put Clark on a pedestal, which is half the reason I stopped posting much to The Planet. Gods forbid Clark has (*gasp*) FLAWS. O_o And if Lois doesn't act like the fawning groupie, then she must just be a bitch, right? *mutters with you*

And was that a roundabout compliment I just read? ^_~ Of course, I'm only doing the Doomsday arc in Aftermath b/c it's letting me put Kon in the 'verse, and Clark comes back. :p

I totally understand about the puppy. It's just like when we had to take Vulcan in. Gods, I was a wreck. *hugs you tight*
Lois: Heirs :: Clois :: Fracturedkalalanekent on March 29th, 2009 06:37 pm (UTC)
I think most other fans just want to put Clark on a pedestal, which is half the reason I stopped posting much to The Planet. Gods forbid Clark has (*gasp*) FLAWS. O_o And if Lois doesn't act like the fawning groupie, then she must just be a bitch, right?

I think you just encapsulated my entire problem right there. Neither one of them are perfected and Clark's just as flawed as she is, especially in the fact that he spends a good deal of his time turning a blind eye to the unhappy stuff. He'd rather see the good than deal with the bad. And a lot of people are forgetting how important it was, as his wife, to be able to keep secrets. The problem is that she's been keeping them so long, she's good at it now.

I also wish people would go back and read Lois and Lex's deal before they start casting stones. She really has a vested interest in keeping this secret from Clark until she has proof. And she's been flirting with sources for years; why should this with Erik come as a surprise? Although she never intended to bed him; she thought she was too old for him to be interested in flirting with her for more than getting a good business deal. Grrr, they should know her better than that! And the momentary thought of 'you know, I could...' would be normal for any woman whose husband's attention has slacked off. I know I've been there, I thought it, but it never went anywhere.

Yeeees, that was a compliment and who cares if that's the reason why? Most stories come about for those reasons. Hell, LS was originally all about making myself not want to kill our boy because of the amnesia kiss at the end of II and moving on to another girl in the very next film and look what it grew into! Srsly!

*hugs you back just as tight* I know. And I hate that there's no way that I can just go and see her. You're not allowed in the back at that clinic. I just want her home.
saavikam77: Destinysaavikam77 on March 29th, 2009 09:58 pm (UTC)
Lois definitely knows what she's doing. And yeah, too well at that. Of course she'd be blindsided that Erik's intentions were more than she'd figured, too, after so many years of marriage.

And Clark does tend to be overly optimistic, doesn't he? Not that it's all a bad thing, but when you only look for the good, you tend to miss the bad. Hence Lex Luthor. :/ I kind of get the feeling that that's what's happening with Kala, and to a smaller extent, Jason. Clark wants to believe his kids are perfect, innocent little angels. It's almost like he forgets that they're half Lois's, and were raised in the city instead of out on the farm. I love the way you're setting that up, too, considering what's coming. ^_~

And hehe.. :p Yeah, Aftermath started as "I can't just leave the story there!" XD

*more hugs*
Obsessed fangirl: Lois and Clark - STM so closebabettew54 on March 29th, 2009 06:45 pm (UTC)
I'm so sorry everything just seems to come at you all at once. Have faith that things will get better... Bagel will get better, and you'll get that much needed rest. *praying for you and the little one*!!

*hugs you tight*

I'm headed over to ff.net to read the latest... causing worries, is it! Well, don't let it get to you too much. There is a plan, you know it... it just takes us readers a while to realize it. But it will work out...

*more hugs for you*!!
Lois: LS :: Superman Lois :: Love Youkalalanekent on March 29th, 2009 07:30 pm (UTC)
I know things will look up; it's just that I'm having a hell of a time reminding myself that at the time. ;) And I'm just worried about the Bagel because this is only the second issue that we've had with her health in almost three years. That and she's the youngest and I'm very protective of her. Then again, that's a Mommy's job.

*hugs you tight* I know you guys aren't sure what we're doing and I love to be able to surprise and amaze you, but it's just that you'd think people would remember that I'm a Clois fan. You, thankfully, remember what you've read and trust me. Trust me, though, there's more going on right now that you can see at the moment. ;)
maaike_fluffy on March 29th, 2009 06:54 pm (UTC)
*accios a punching bag*

Here. Vent on that. Reviewers will always think they know what's best for the story. They don't. And it's not theirs. You write what you two want. You've proven yourselves capable to blow everyone out of the water...

And I am sorry to hear about the Bagel and the family issues. *snuggles* Hope things will start looking up soon...

And in the mean time.... pummel that bag... ;)
Lois: Heirs :: Lois :: Grumpykalalanekent on March 29th, 2009 07:51 pm (UTC)
You know what? This really is one of those times when owning one would be SOOO worth it....enough so that I might look into it. I can't think of a better way to work out and release stress than that. What works for your characters... *remembers that she might want to mention that in a chapter somewhere*

I know they will and I certainly should understand that it's easy to jump to conclusions, but it just makes me crazy when someone's like, "OMG!!! I CANT BELIEVE YOU DID THAT! I'LL KILL YOU IF YOU BREAK THEM UP!!! I'M NEVER READING YOUR STUFF AGAIN!!" And it makes me all the more crazy when it's only in the opening arc of what's been planned as an epic. I mean, let us show you what we're up to before you freak out. *headdesk*

I think she's going to be okay, although the coughing up of blood was pretty terrifying. I'm more upset that I was pretty drugged up on Tylenol PM when it happened and was utterly useless to comfort her. They last said that they had the vomiting under control. I just shakes me pretty hard.

*hugs* Thanks, Maaike! You always know just what I need. *heads for that punching bag*
maaike_fluffy on March 29th, 2009 08:23 pm (UTC)
When lacking a punching bag... I always find my pillow does the job just as well. :)

As for stupid reviewers; I remember being totally annoyed at some Crossing Borders reviewers, when I had somebody raise some (valid!) critical points about the otp and the main character in particular; people started demanding his early demise... no one threatened to stop reading through... That's just... childish
Lois: Lois :: Facepalmkalalanekent on March 30th, 2009 08:55 pm (UTC)
The pillows I have are all down and thus too squishy. I need a heavy bag, srsly.

And it's good when the critics have useful observations, but too often those critical reviews are easily 'WHY are you doing this this way?! I don't UNDERSTAND! You need to stop or I'm going to stop reading!" Not that my reviews are always like that, the vast majority are not, but there's always one. Or two. I got a lot of it at the end of LS.

What caused the 'Kill HIM!"?
maaike_fluffy on March 30th, 2009 09:07 pm (UTC)
What caused the 'Kill HIM!"?

Hmm... how much do you know about the Narnia movies, I wonder? I had Prince--then king--Caspian... the main character... give in to an urge to leave Narnia and go to England while Narnia wasn't doing so very hot. Peter called him on that and said his actions were irresponsible and--as king--he should know better. And Peter was absolutely right, of course. But all the readers saw was that, now that Caspian was in England, nothing would stand in the way of the OTP pairing. So as soon as Peter gave Caspian a hard time they collectively got pissed at Peter, and I was like: O_O huh? But he's right!!!

Oh, and how is Kala doing?

Edited at 2009-03-30 09:09 pm (UTC)
Lois: Lois :: Yeah Rightkalalanekent on March 30th, 2009 09:57 pm (UTC)
I've seen the first film and know enough from other fans on the F-List to understand what's going on here, so no worries.

...okay, I feel the audience for wanting their OTP together, regardless of what it does to the rest of that world, but if it effects the events of the story (and is done as selfishly as it seems to have been done here, whether it was the passion of the moment or not), you have every reason to call him on it, as you did with Peter. This is a story and stories have conflict. That's what makes them interesting. Without conflict (be it armies between them or fate or another person), just how long would it hold your attention? *boot the stupids in the butt* Just hush and watch what happens.

She's getting better. We took the cath out about an hour ago and she's eating food and drinking now, so it looks as though she's going to be okay. I need to blog about her coming home, but I've been too busy running around after her. *LOL*
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Lois: LS :: Baby Bagelkalalanekent on March 30th, 2009 03:50 am (UTC)
It seems like she's getting better as the day goes on and I hope to have her home in time for bed. I really just don't like the thought of her away from home for the night. I'm so not used to feeling this helpless...

*hugs you back just as hard*
Tamanna: kitty snuggleswingandswirl on March 30th, 2009 02:34 am (UTC)
*hugs you lots*

Aww, honey, that sucks. I haven't read the story yet (thanks evil college) but I know you and Anissa are doing a kick-ass job with it.

Ignore the eejit reviewers. They don't know what they're talking about. And it's YOUR story, so your decisions. Which I am sure are well-thought-out, perfectly IC, and leading up to a hell of a pay-off.

And oh no, poor Kala Bagel! *pets her and offers puppy Tums*
Lois: Heirs :: Kal-El Jason :: Legacykalalanekent on March 30th, 2009 09:07 pm (UTC)
*hugs* I love that you guys have such confidence in us, especially those just now reading and those that haven't started (and I totally understand why. I'm hoping that everyone can catch up over the summer, when we'll likely be toward the end. Make it easier on you). I really wish I didn't get so frustrated when people jump to conclusions so early, but it's like getting mad to Smallville mid-season. Wait until you know what we're up to before you get mad at us. *headdesk* Does that make me sound like a total diva jackass?

She's fine now, if a little tired. Her tummy is healing up just fine. *deep sigh of relief*

Edited at 2009-03-30 09:08 pm (UTC)
clarks_girlclarks_girl on March 30th, 2009 02:45 am (UTC)
OK I’m going to be a little bizarre in input real world into fantasy for a second having been an old married woman for the past 10 years. I can understand why some readers may be worried about the direction of your story because for once Lois and Clark are being portrayed as a normal couple with normal hung ups. And while the angst is killing me, I’m loving it. Clark is just a guy who can do extraordinary things, but he’s still just a guy whose brain probably works the same as most men’s when it comes to relationships…..not well.

How many relationships have you heard of breaking down where the man not only didn’t see it coming, but couldn’t understand why? Unfortunately Clark is in that mind set at the moment. Sand, dig hole, buries head, problem goes away. Yeah right. And because he’s got his head buried so far up his ass, he can’t see Lois’ sense of abandonment from his side of relationship; while Lois, who is so busy keeping secrets and focusing on keeping her family safe, has been too distracted to notice her emotional abandonment until it’s almost too late. So now her distraction has turned to frustration and resentment.

So in a nut shell they have both been retreating from their relationship emotionally for a while now and it seems to have become the status quo. Right, I can’t believe I’ve just psychoanalyzed the marital problems of Lois and Clark at work. Better get back to it 

Love Jody
Lois: Lois :: Dramatic Shockkalalanekent on March 30th, 2009 03:10 am (UTC)


*blinks in amazement*

*opens mouth and attempts to speak*





*attempts for the second time and succeeds*

First, you have to stop hanging out in my head. Seriously. OMG, you are just... You are amazing. And two, that was brilliant and spot-on that I would marry you in an instant. XD You are just the awesomest awesome to ever awesome.

Thank you, Jody, this is exactly what I needed to hear! *hugs you so tight*
clarks_girlclarks_girl on March 30th, 2009 10:39 am (UTC)
No worries luv. Comes from 10 years of marriage - althought in my case it's been mostly Scott having to play second fiddle to a horse ;-)

But once you beat them into submission....whoops I mean develop a loving and communicative relationship, husbands do come in handy every now and then. Particularly when they send you on a trip to New York because so far your 2009 has sucked big time :-)
Lois: Clois :: Hold On To Mekalalanekent on March 30th, 2009 09:29 pm (UTC)
And it's great to know that it's been ten years for you both, too. I'm not so sure that a lot of people have been in relationship that long or it's been a lot time since then for them. I know that there are a few relationships that ended badly for some of the readers as well, which makes me nervous to post them, but I can't and won't downplay this crisis in their relationship. It needs to be shown, I think. They're not perfect, although we love them both madly. We also need to show if they're all strong enough to deal with the trials ahead.

And there are trials to come, trust me. ;)

Jody, dear, thank you so much for this. The reality of someone understanding it so perfectly that's not 'in the loop' has made me feel so much better.
clarks_girlclarks_girl on March 30th, 2009 11:22 pm (UTC)
Awwww shucks {{{{{{blushes}}}}}} But seriously payment is preferred in small unmarked bills ;-)
Lois: Lois :: Grinkalalanekent on March 31st, 2009 05:55 pm (UTC)
Heading for the bank now. :D