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13 July 2008 @ 07:50 pm
I Discovered Something Today...  
I'm not sure if the someone who wrote this is reading this, but I found a post today that really startled me. As I don't know who you are and you seem to be someone close to me (at least in the fandom), I want you to know that I don't hate you. Everyone in entitled to their own favorite version of events. That's why it's fanon. What I don't understand was why you kept reading and told me it was good when you didn't think it was. That's what hurts me. And that you disliked it so much that you couldn't tell me, you had to put it there. It was a great shock when I was reading through and found that post, especially since it was obvious who it was. I'm so sorry to have disappointed you so much. 

As to their being referred to as 'the twins' constantly, I have a set of younger twin sisters and that didn't become an issue with them until they hit the age of ten or so. And then it comes on hard-core. I'm basing the pair on personal experience. That's what a lot of their actions are based on, as well as several pairs I've known as I grew up. I also think that they show their own personalities enough that that doesn't change when I refer to them as a unit. Kala and Jason are twins also because they were written as such before SR was even in theaters. The first story I wrote with them predates the film by fifteen years. The main character that was changed to fit the fic was Jason. And as for the actual reason that their twins? I didn't want him to be alone, like his father was. He's going to have enough craziness in his life. Why shouldn't he have someone to share the journey?

Again, I'm not really angry about this, I'm more hurt. Please, know that I don't hate you, but please don't feel you need to lie to me about how you feel about the story. I'd rather know that it's not your cup of tea. And I wouldn't let you get flayed alive. That's not the kind of person I am and since you seem to know me pretty well, I'd like to think that you know that. Okay? And if anyone knows who they are, I don't want anything said to them. And I don't want anyone in the fandom striking out at them, either. I don't consider myself a BNF, which I didn't even understand the meaning of until a few months ago. I'm sorry that Kala was such a disappointment to you and that she seems to upset you to that level. More than that, I'm sorry that you had to buoy me up. 

And that goes for all of you. Don't feel that you need to pump me up on certain projects if you don't have an interest in them. It worries me to no end that I'm making a fool of myself with this fandom. Please, if you do love you, don't feel you have to lie to me to stay my friend. I'll love you regardless. And I won't turn anyone on you for feeling that way. What's the point? 

However, this does not mean that I plan to eliminate Kala from anything. She's an important character in this 'verse and there are enough people out there that love her that she will continue on. She's been in the plans since the beginning. Dear reader, I apologize, but I can't change all of it for that reason. I really hope you understand. I'll not fault you if you stop reading.

Please, guys, no wank in the comments. I'm trying really hard not to offend this person. You understand?
 
 
 
child_of_a_dot on July 14th, 2008 02:14 pm (UTC)
Ok honestly... I know you said no wank so I will try to control myself (though, it's v. hard). Though I understand the hurt you feel. When you post a story you put yourself and your work out there to be judged, it's all subjective.

Yet, this is SNEAKY(to put it mildly)I think this has more to do with this other person than you or your story. If this person feels that they have to put on a false front in fandom to be accepted I feel sorry for them. We are probably some of the most accepting peeps out there.

You are hurt and it is understandable, anyone would be. You are not alone in feeling this way. Just know that I love your story and your true fans support you no matter what. You write what you want to write, stay true to your characters (as you always have been) and the verse will continue to shine.

I love Kala, she's always been a favorite OC of mine.
Don't lose sleep over this, it's completely not worth it.

I also agree with ecabs- posting your secrets in a not so secret community is totally defeating the purpose IMO.