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13 July 2008 @ 07:50 pm
I Discovered Something Today...  
I'm not sure if the someone who wrote this is reading this, but I found a post today that really startled me. As I don't know who you are and you seem to be someone close to me (at least in the fandom), I want you to know that I don't hate you. Everyone in entitled to their own favorite version of events. That's why it's fanon. What I don't understand was why you kept reading and told me it was good when you didn't think it was. That's what hurts me. And that you disliked it so much that you couldn't tell me, you had to put it there. It was a great shock when I was reading through and found that post, especially since it was obvious who it was. I'm so sorry to have disappointed you so much. 

As to their being referred to as 'the twins' constantly, I have a set of younger twin sisters and that didn't become an issue with them until they hit the age of ten or so. And then it comes on hard-core. I'm basing the pair on personal experience. That's what a lot of their actions are based on, as well as several pairs I've known as I grew up. I also think that they show their own personalities enough that that doesn't change when I refer to them as a unit. Kala and Jason are twins also because they were written as such before SR was even in theaters. The first story I wrote with them predates the film by fifteen years. The main character that was changed to fit the fic was Jason. And as for the actual reason that their twins? I didn't want him to be alone, like his father was. He's going to have enough craziness in his life. Why shouldn't he have someone to share the journey?

Again, I'm not really angry about this, I'm more hurt. Please, know that I don't hate you, but please don't feel you need to lie to me about how you feel about the story. I'd rather know that it's not your cup of tea. And I wouldn't let you get flayed alive. That's not the kind of person I am and since you seem to know me pretty well, I'd like to think that you know that. Okay? And if anyone knows who they are, I don't want anything said to them. And I don't want anyone in the fandom striking out at them, either. I don't consider myself a BNF, which I didn't even understand the meaning of until a few months ago. I'm sorry that Kala was such a disappointment to you and that she seems to upset you to that level. More than that, I'm sorry that you had to buoy me up. 

And that goes for all of you. Don't feel that you need to pump me up on certain projects if you don't have an interest in them. It worries me to no end that I'm making a fool of myself with this fandom. Please, if you do love you, don't feel you have to lie to me to stay my friend. I'll love you regardless. And I won't turn anyone on you for feeling that way. What's the point? 

However, this does not mean that I plan to eliminate Kala from anything. She's an important character in this 'verse and there are enough people out there that love her that she will continue on. She's been in the plans since the beginning. Dear reader, I apologize, but I can't change all of it for that reason. I really hope you understand. I'll not fault you if you stop reading.

Please, guys, no wank in the comments. I'm trying really hard not to offend this person. You understand?
 
 
 
 
Syd Gill: A: Chuck - Angrysydgill on July 14th, 2008 04:58 am (UTC)
I can't not wank about this and since you don't want it I won't say what I really want to say, except:

a) I support you...somebody took a cheap shot and that feels worse then the reason why they did it. I think you need to remember that this is someone's way of dealing with their dishonesty with themselves (not being strong enough) to say what they really felt and not issues with you or your story.

and

b) DUDE. Posting your secret in a public forum isn't going to keep your secret a secret for much longer. I don't know who you are so this is not a personal attack but I think when we're dishonest to other people we're dishonest to ourselves. You might have felt that coming clean to a whole bunch of strangers would make you feel better, but really, IMO, you can't feel good until you own up to that original lie. Just my thoughts.