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13 July 2008 @ 07:50 pm
I Discovered Something Today...  
I'm not sure if the someone who wrote this is reading this, but I found a post today that really startled me. As I don't know who you are and you seem to be someone close to me (at least in the fandom), I want you to know that I don't hate you. Everyone in entitled to their own favorite version of events. That's why it's fanon. What I don't understand was why you kept reading and told me it was good when you didn't think it was. That's what hurts me. And that you disliked it so much that you couldn't tell me, you had to put it there. It was a great shock when I was reading through and found that post, especially since it was obvious who it was. I'm so sorry to have disappointed you so much. 

As to their being referred to as 'the twins' constantly, I have a set of younger twin sisters and that didn't become an issue with them until they hit the age of ten or so. And then it comes on hard-core. I'm basing the pair on personal experience. That's what a lot of their actions are based on, as well as several pairs I've known as I grew up. I also think that they show their own personalities enough that that doesn't change when I refer to them as a unit. Kala and Jason are twins also because they were written as such before SR was even in theaters. The first story I wrote with them predates the film by fifteen years. The main character that was changed to fit the fic was Jason. And as for the actual reason that their twins? I didn't want him to be alone, like his father was. He's going to have enough craziness in his life. Why shouldn't he have someone to share the journey?

Again, I'm not really angry about this, I'm more hurt. Please, know that I don't hate you, but please don't feel you need to lie to me about how you feel about the story. I'd rather know that it's not your cup of tea. And I wouldn't let you get flayed alive. That's not the kind of person I am and since you seem to know me pretty well, I'd like to think that you know that. Okay? And if anyone knows who they are, I don't want anything said to them. And I don't want anyone in the fandom striking out at them, either. I don't consider myself a BNF, which I didn't even understand the meaning of until a few months ago. I'm sorry that Kala was such a disappointment to you and that she seems to upset you to that level. More than that, I'm sorry that you had to buoy me up. 

And that goes for all of you. Don't feel that you need to pump me up on certain projects if you don't have an interest in them. It worries me to no end that I'm making a fool of myself with this fandom. Please, if you do love you, don't feel you have to lie to me to stay my friend. I'll love you regardless. And I won't turn anyone on you for feeling that way. What's the point? 

However, this does not mean that I plan to eliminate Kala from anything. She's an important character in this 'verse and there are enough people out there that love her that she will continue on. She's been in the plans since the beginning. Dear reader, I apologize, but I can't change all of it for that reason. I really hope you understand. I'll not fault you if you stop reading.

Please, guys, no wank in the comments. I'm trying really hard not to offend this person. You understand?
winddancer55945winddancer55945 on July 14th, 2008 03:29 am (UTC)
You are right. Every one is entitled to their own opinion.

When I write a review, it is becasue I really enjoyed the story or the chaper. I feel that the author deserves some praise for his or her time and effort. I know that I do not review everything I read and like, but that is a fault of mine. If I do not like a story, I quit reading it. It is that simple. If I found a fault in the story, I have notified the author privately via email.

As for fandom awards, I have only participated in the Superman awards. I have read every story nominated. I even participated in the nominations. When I cast my vote, it was for the story, chapter, part, character, whatever that I thought was the best. I did not vote because this person, or that person is on my flist. I want the award to be for the quality of the work and not a popularity contest.

So do not change your story. It is your story to tell. You can write whatever you want. You can write about whatever characters you want. I will still be here for the ride.

And I have no clue what BNF means.
saavikam77: Clark Blue Rosessaavikam77 on July 14th, 2008 04:19 am (UTC)
Wow, that's a lot of reading!! O_O I applaud you for it.

Oh, and BNF = Big Name Fan. :p
winddancer55945: Boston Kisseswinddancer55945 on July 14th, 2008 01:54 pm (UTC)
Thanks> I was busy for awhile there. I even discussed it with family anbd friends. But they think I am nuts. Oh well.

Oh I forgot to send hugs to Lois and Anissa. *hugs to you*
Loony Loopy Lea Lovegoodchickadilly on July 14th, 2008 04:26 am (UTC)
I ... wow. You said no wank so I will refrain but let me say I agree with winddancer55945 that it's your story to tell and you should tell it how you see fit. You need to write what works for YOU. Even if it doesn't work for everyone if you're true to what's in your heart and to the story that you want to tell - then that's all that matters.

*hugs you* For what it's worth I think Kala is a very well rounded character - and I love the twins!

Barbara: Hug Peter MJ SM3htbthomas on July 14th, 2008 04:51 am (UTC)
Dropping in from Colorado...


And I'm guessing one of the other secrets was about the SMFA. If that person happens to read this comment - it's okay. I only want people to participate who want to. :)

I'm really happy with how the voting is turning out, too - the love is being spread much more widely this time around. :)

*more hugs*
Lois: Lois :: Ace Reporter Screamkalalanekent on July 14th, 2008 04:56 am (UTC)
I think that that my have been around reason it startled me, with the awards being tomorrow.

I'm scared to death that I won't sleep.

Thanks so much for the long-distance love, Mom.
Syd Gill: A: Chuck - Angrysydgill on July 14th, 2008 04:58 am (UTC)
I can't not wank about this and since you don't want it I won't say what I really want to say, except:

a) I support you...somebody took a cheap shot and that feels worse then the reason why they did it. I think you need to remember that this is someone's way of dealing with their dishonesty with themselves (not being strong enough) to say what they really felt and not issues with you or your story.


b) DUDE. Posting your secret in a public forum isn't going to keep your secret a secret for much longer. I don't know who you are so this is not a personal attack but I think when we're dishonest to other people we're dishonest to ourselves. You might have felt that coming clean to a whole bunch of strangers would make you feel better, but really, IMO, you can't feel good until you own up to that original lie. Just my thoughts.
✰ ❝elliαniα❞ ĸatrine: random; shocked !elliania on July 14th, 2008 10:55 am (UTC)

I didn't even know a lj community like this even existed. And I agree with you, this is hurting. What I don't understand is why that person was lying. You don't like it, just stop reading, or don't comment. Just stop. '~'

It's really something I never understood. I didn't understand people who put bad reviews, because for me it's clear, if you don't like a thing, you don't go through it. I mean... who does that? And why even bother to read and let a negative review?

But that's worse and behind my understanding skills. Lying ??!? Telling the person you love it when clearly you don't? O_o I don't thing you should take it that personal. That person has something to figure out on his/her own.

I'm not wanking, I'm just lost. :( Let's be clear, I respect this person's opinion, and I can accept she doesn't like the story. It's the lying part that leave me shocked.

Anyway, I think you reply to this was perfect! It's great to share what you feel about it. And you stayed very respectful, no matter how hurt you were. I wouldn't be able to. I mean... I'm hurt for you I'm almost shaking. ;___;

I love you, honey! And I love your Kala and I think it's already great you change a bit of Jason to fit the movie. That was already something to the movie's fan and I thank you for this.

Was that too rude? I didn't mean to be...
clarks_girlclarks_girl on July 14th, 2008 11:49 am (UTC)
OK I don't get it. Oh and thanks for explaining BNF by the way..Doh!! I just feel sorry for who ever this person is, because it seems they have nothing better in their lives than to live it through fandom. And if they know you personally, then that's even sadder.

Anyway, I can't wait to read more of the twins escapades....and why do I have to wait until October for So Close: Out Of Reach...that's sooooo unacceptable ;-)

Love Jody
Tamanna: nofrellingapologiesswingandswirl on July 14th, 2008 01:44 pm (UTC)
Since you requested no wank, I'm just here to offer hugs.

People have said this before, but it's YOUR story. Your story that is good enough to tempt even a hardcore slasher to the Dark Side... temporarily, at least.

Write what makes you happy, no matter what anyone says- what's important is YOU, the writer, not the fans, not anybody. I don't want to say something I shouldn't, so I'll end here.

*hugs again*
maaike_fluffy on July 14th, 2008 02:09 pm (UTC)
OMG what? :O

I can understand how one can disagree with a story and be annoyed at it. And, lets face it, you do seem to be everywhere. But I think the person ought not to have put this on that website. Because it was bound to come out at some point, and hearing critique this way hurts so much more than when someone just admits it personally.

I agree with elliania that the part that surprises me most is that the person told you he/she loved it. Preferring blunt over sugar coating myself; I can't relate.

I think you are being wonderfully mature. Please don't let this one comment get you down. Think of it as a less than gushing review. We all get those from time to time. There are dozens of people out there that DO love Kala...

child_of_a_dot on July 14th, 2008 02:14 pm (UTC)
Ok honestly... I know you said no wank so I will try to control myself (though, it's v. hard). Though I understand the hurt you feel. When you post a story you put yourself and your work out there to be judged, it's all subjective.

Yet, this is SNEAKY(to put it mildly)I think this has more to do with this other person than you or your story. If this person feels that they have to put on a false front in fandom to be accepted I feel sorry for them. We are probably some of the most accepting peeps out there.

You are hurt and it is understandable, anyone would be. You are not alone in feeling this way. Just know that I love your story and your true fans support you no matter what. You write what you want to write, stay true to your characters (as you always have been) and the verse will continue to shine.

I love Kala, she's always been a favorite OC of mine.
Don't lose sleep over this, it's completely not worth it.

I also agree with ecabs- posting your secrets in a not so secret community is totally defeating the purpose IMO.
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ellalou73 on July 14th, 2008 08:27 pm (UTC)
Just dropping in to support you here.Sorry I'm late in this but I love what you have done with the twins, they are among my favorite characters and I don't think LS would be what it is without Miss Kala in it, so keep doing what your doing. You two are amazing writers and I've loved going back to revisit the characters in both verses. HUGS
Brian's FanFic Journal: Head Bangermr_beeto on July 14th, 2008 11:27 pm (UTC)
There are some things I simply don't understand. I don't understand why someone would praise something they hated in this forum. It's not like there's a gun to their head. And I really don't understand publicly denigrating the story and author like this. This isn't a commercial work, and its not easy putting it all on the line, maintaining quality production and risking the slings and arrows.

That said: You can't please all of the people all of the time, and if you try, you end up not pleasing anyone. You know you have a large fan base of people who genuinely like your story and your OC, and it's clearly given you great satisfaction. Embrace that, and don't dwell on the other stuff.
Mebrdwaybebe on July 15th, 2008 06:50 am (UTC)
My philosophy is to ignore any input from people not willing to put their name behind their statements.

You are so loved

I love you guys. I can't say more than that...-hugs and snuffles-

Mebrdwaybebe on July 15th, 2008 06:51 am (UTC)
P.S What is a BNF?

Basically Notoriously Fabulous? ;)
The Nat That Walks By Herselfevilstorm on July 15th, 2008 01:38 pm (UTC)
*nods* Kudos to you for handling it this way, in such a mature fashion. Megakudos, really, since so often it goes the other way.

If the secret-poster is reading, then sympathies. I know what it's like to have an unpopular opinion in a close-knit fandom. I can relate to posting on that comm instead of in reviews. So, um, relax, have some internet cookiethings. Actually, everyone have some internet cookiethings, peace and love blah blah etc.